final~

omg...Wat a relief that the results are out today~ such a relief to know that i Passed every subject I've taken last semester~ muahaha~ 2 P and 1 D although one of the P could have been C ...but still it's a BLESS from GOD! prays to the God! thank Q so so much for hearing me~ please continue hearing me for my next semester and for the rest of my life!

final year final semester is starting soon in a week time, exactly on 27 July 2009!

for the next 12 weeks and 1 week of swot week, I'll be kicking my own arse to get going on to my graduation, my GOAL! to graduate! definitely!

Push, Push, Push! I must devote myself to work hard to achieve my Goal, to GRADUATE the end of this year, 2009!

Be Devoted, Be Determined, Be Motivated, Be Hardworking! Be a Graduate the end of Second Semester 2009!

爱

各位，请问你们觉得什么是爱呢？

《爱无罪》，这部戏剧的最后一集，女主角提到了“爱没有过去也没有未来，只是把洋溢在心中的喜爱之情以及当下的每一个瞬间连接起来”

爱是什么呢?

两个人在一起快快乐乐过日子,

两个人拥有开心的回忆,

两个人互相忍让,

两个人彼此恩爱,

爱情是两个人的努力,

没有努力,

爱情也许有可能就此消失了.

爱情是两个人的未来,

为未来而一起奋斗,

爱情也因奋斗而继续延展.

爱情是两个人的回忆,

想起那些点点滴滴,

爱情也因此更加稳固坚定.

爱情是属于两个人的,

爱情必须要双方面的付出,和努力,

爱情才会长久.

爱就是无私的.爱一个人没理由,爱一个人也不需要理由...感觉是对的,感情也更是对的...

彼此的思念,让爱情也更加的甜蜜,

彼此的信赖,让爱情也更加的稳固,

彼此的承诺,让爱情也更加的坚定.

要相信彼此, 爱情才能发芽...

emo笔

1 july 2009

God..please listen to my prayers!

Oh God..I'll be sitting for my CCP , final year course in 12 hours...please...i only pray for a Pass a 50% would be good enough and satisfying!

Please give me the confidence and strength i always wanted! believe in myself and be able to succeed!

Please be with me~

Thanks God! :D

秘密

又到了每个月都会有的时候了

真烦

后天就是考试了，

明明今早和下午心情还好好的，哪知刚才莫名其妙的，无名火又突然烧起来了！

还真的烦死我了！

每每到了这个时候，我都会有不同的心情，时好时坏，真叫人摸不着头脑。

刚刚我的无名火又突然烧起，明明就是一个那么好的在谈天，又被我的莫名其妙给破坏了。。。真是的。。。conversation完了，因为他累了，我的火也突然更大了，因为突然电话挂了，问了也没得到答案。。。>.<" 真不晓得我到底要什么嘛。。。气死我了啦！

我也懒得理了啦，反正考完试了再平衡自己的心情呗！

sadly

nonsense...childish...fiasco...chaos...rubbish

Are these enough to describe the current politic situation in Perak, Perak Government?

It was a relief to read in the newspaper that finally the High Court of Malaysia ruled that Nizar is the valid MB of Perak, and PKR is the legitimate government.

Now, what a crap to see that a stay of execution of the order pending an appeal filed by Zambry was ordered down by the Court of Appeal...omg...this has not make the fiasco better, ain't it?

Could it be worse?

Perak people need government, once the fiasco, chaos has not end...how could there be development for the State? how could there be concern for the PUBLIC DOMAIN when all the so-called legitimate and illegitimate government do now is ARGUING like kindies WHO IS THE LEGAL MB AND GOVERNMENT?

please...would you listen to what the public got to say! after all, i thought election is about PUBLIC VOTES! Public interest majority!

Where is fairness when the BN just took over when Hee Yit Fong crossed-over to BN? Where was the impartiality when the Speaker of Assembly, Siva, was forcefully carried out by the sergeants and Speaker's status has provided Siva the immunity?

Why not just have a re-election? is it that difficult?
to force the perak people to accept a government that they don't want, would that be fair? would it be efficient then for the government?

*sigh* peace should be retained after all!

Cover letter

omg..i know we are to send in cover letters and CV when applying for job..
but it's so annoying knowing that your cover letter isn't that interesting or eye-catching..so frustrating

i'm getting advice from my bf, my brother...one is simple and hit to the points, another is fancy and eye-catching strong phrases.
omg...which one should i keep up with?
i'm always the kind of person "simple and easy is the best", but now it makes sense to me that fancy and eye-catching words show more tendency of getting a job!

i guess i'll stick to fancy and eye-catching words but also straight to the point of coz since i'm so desperate for a firm to hire me! :D haha~

乐观 vs 悲观

我一向来也不是说很悲观的说，只觉得活得开心就是快乐，没什么好担忧的。
最近，倒是相反的，最近，我越来越emotional，越来越悲观的呢。。。常常都想要哭，想要逃避，想要死了就算，真烦啊！
stress? intense? pressure？
我是学生，压力是正常的啊！hmmph! 我究竟怎么了？真搞不懂自己~
可能是final year 吧，我害怕毕业，我也害怕毕不了业；我害怕找不到工作，我更害怕我不懂我要的是什么。。。
我要PR? 我要回家？我要当律师？我想要什么，在这阶段，我还没真地想出来。。。但我懂，我要考到好成绩，顺利毕业！
我知道我一定行的！我要告诉自己：I Can Do It! 要常常提醒自己如此。
:D

好想家呢~ wuwuwu~
好想他哦~

算了吧，我一定要毕业！我一定会的！然后，我再慢慢的考虑要做什么也应该不迟吧？:D
就这样告诉自己，也应该会比较好过点吧。。。也没这么辛苦
好！瑜贤，要加油！必须加油！必须相信自己是行的! 必须要坚持到底！
:D

crap

crap..i couldn't believe that i actually shaded tears in front of the whole class...and a solicitor, stephen~
omg..it was kinda embarrassing after all...>.<

i had been preparing for last week application for one week..and i thought the most i would be shaking in the class when i talk, just plain simple nervous...i had no expectation that panic shock would struck me and tears just flow out the moment the guest judge asked me a question...stupidity, ain't it?

that wasn't the first time i cried for the week...i had been crying for my two weeks easter break..damn it! how can this actually happen to me...i was asking myself all the time~
stress?
depressed?
tension?
love?
studies?
omg...when i first got the chance to try-out for tele-marketing, i find it interesting and fun until the pressure slowly eats me up, the tense of getting appointment by the end of the work day, at least 2 appointments for trainees, and the target goes up until 4 appointments to see our performance....i couldn't perform~i just got no urge or any will to force people to be interested in an education software when they're not, even if their children really need it, but they're not interested..i just couldn't push them~ when uni starts for the term 2 of semester 1, i went in for another day, the first day of the week, i couldn't perform as well, partly of my voice because of the flu and cold...and i was not in a mood to talk on the phone for 4 hours...too draggy~all the time i was in the office, i was looking at my clock, waiting for 7:30pm to come! when i went in again the next day, my manager asked to talk to me before working time starts, that time, i had already made decision, to quit, i was going to quit after all, the pressure is eating me up too much, i became too depressed for my whole holiday...i really can't bear with it anymore..finally, i quit and i was really relieved after that.

concentrate on studies, that's what i want myself to do at the moment for this year, 2009..perhaps i could get some part-time job to get some extra cash, but i'm picky, i went for training with a sushi bar, i was complaining about the work environment and how i got backache after that, omg...haha...charlotte was saying something like "u're a princess la"...but yeah, i couldn't deny that, i just want a normal and non-hectic life, i suppose...with easy cash coming in without working my ass off?! how dreamy i can be~ haha~ i guess it will take time for me to learn to be more realistic...after all, i had been living under "daddy-mummy" roof for such a long year, pampered by grandparents, maid and the living environment~ i don't really give a thought of how my parents earn money when i was in my teenage, i just spent money, although technically, i don't spend money on shopping because they're always around when we go shopping..we go out as a family, until i reach my college age, only then, i was independent, but still pampered...protected by uncles and aunties in KL~how "xin fu" i can be, i asked myself? i could go back taiping whenever i want to, i can spend money whenever i want to..but after 17 years education of my parents, i do learn something, that is, the Khaw Family (members, incl uncles aunties cousins), we don't spend money wastefully, we spend them wisely, only when we need it..well...hmm..exception for girls i suppose...coz we need to shop to dress up and be pretty! :D

anyway, i've been living a good life, even in adelaide, i couldn't really have problem la...i got a house...a car...
sometimes i really wonder could i be like those rich girl, and be bitchy, and spend money without thinking of how hard my parents earn the money, spend money like it is nothing at all, and people got envy with me because i could just spend on whatever i want?!

haha...well i guess...i could...in my dreams~ :D but afterall, it depends on the nature of the person, whether it is in the nature to spend, as for me, i've been trained not to spend money like that..like the way i wondered if i could, i've been trained to save money, probably i would only spend more abit on shopping whenever i could and whenever i feel worth it...i just couldn't spend my parents' money for nothing or to be a wild child, or rich girl~

see...these are crap i wanted to say for this post...:P

quotes~

my siblings had eaten baci a few days ago...and i managed to save the quote paper wrapping :P

a few quotes :

1) Women are like kites. The more you let out the cord the better you grip on them. (n.121 A.Dumas Figlio)
true enough that everyone pursues freedom; in a relationship, trust is the main ingredient, once the trust fall apart, it would be hard to be amendable; "women are like kites", yes, everyone love to have their own time too; guys and women are of no difference; we are not supposed to grab hold tightly on something forever, it is better to let loose sometimes, and trust comes into play; however, sometimes women may feel that it is more secure if the other part is "gripping tight" on them, well at least I am...just sometimes..it is sweet to know someone cares for you, especially your loved one :D

2) Loved shall be who lovable becomes. (n.138 Proverbio)
someone who is lovable at first sight shall be loved one?! haha...i believe that :"> because that's how me and Bob started :P from the very first day i knew his existence, he is lovable...until now we are loved to each other :) glad that i found him~

3) Anything done for love is beyond good and evil. (n.21 F.Nietzsche)
with this quote...i believe erm...everyone express their love differently; some may have done something bad or hurting trying to save their relationship, but may not have thought what the other part actually wanted; some may have done good things but not successful; i think it's complicated sometimes; LOVE blinds people; Love would make you do whatever you think it's probable or appropriate...it all depends on the circumstances to judge good and evil (my opinion)

hmmph...finish for now...no more quote wrapping papers being unwrap these few days :D

Kiss GoodBye & Forever Love

[Kiss Goodbye - LeeHom Wang]

baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心
好好欣赏你的美
幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走
去跟随
每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔
痛苦难以释怀
每一次kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
----
但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味
我终于明白

[Forever Love - LeeHom Wang]

O~~~
爱你,
不是因为你的美和影
我越来越爱你,
每个眼神触动我的心
因为你让我看见forever
才了解自己,
未来这些日子
要好好珍惜
爱我
有些痛苦有些不公平
如果真的爱我
不是理所当然的决定
感到你的呼吸在我耳边
像微风深情
温柔的安抚,
我的不安定
所以我要
每年研究你的笑容
Wo~~
多么自然
forever love forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后,
你会是所有
幸福的理由
爱情,
是场最美最远的旅行
沿途遇经泥泞
偶尔阻碍我们的前进
感到你的体温在我怀里
像阳光和煦
巧妙的熔化
我的不安定
不可思议
证明我爱你的理由
WO
多么自然
你感动的眼睛,
我沉默的声音,
仿佛就是最好的证明
就让我再说一次
Ilove you ~~
直到永远
oh
forever love
forever love
forever love

一段爱情，可不可以是没负担的呢？
爱情，可不可以是常常久久呢？
我相信‘能’！你呢？我相信我要的爱情是有结果的，无论多久，我都愿意等，因为我觉得是值得的。我会等，5 年的时间，我相信~
我爱你，是个不容易收回的1 句话，也是美妙的3 个字~
莫汉文，我爱你！我相信我们的爱情，我也相信你，我们要努力哦! 为未来而奋斗！ 加油!

baci

baci baci baci
this evening, 2 baci were opened and eaten
they contained 2 difference quotes :
1. if you gave me all the kisses in the world, they would still be too few
2. Woman: "You don't understand me!" Man: "What do you mean?"

as consequences, from the above statements, it shows that Man sometimes have shallow thinking compare to Woman.
Woman tends to think in depth, they see something in a different way. For example, a movie, a movie called Ip Man, woman found it to be touching while guys only see them as martial arts and actions. This the difference between thinking of woman and man. So, when an issue is raised between a couple, man may never get the point the woman is talking about, and it takes time for man to realise after awhile what woman had tried to talk about, some may be too late, some may be amendable...regardless, woman thinks in depth than man; they see something that guys do not see.

"if you give me all the kisses in the world, they would still be too few" i found this romantic, sweet, charming whoever said that.
for me, no matter how much kisses he gives me, i would love for more, they are still few to me...if i ever could, if we ever could stay together forever, the kisses you give will never be enough...it goes on and on forever until eternity~

bad mood

oh yes! emily is in her nasty mood
and angry
and bad
and extremely sad~
i want to kill someone but not being convicted of the crime, could i?
haha~

moody~

date: 30-31 March 2009
weather: dry and hot and moody
feelings: i'm confused...i'm struggling~
it is so difficult...with all the workload~it crazily too heavy load~i need time to think i need a break to breathe..my brain just could not function effectively like i wanted it to..i need information for my mediation exercise, i need information and argument for this friday interlocutory application...too much work too less time...and the weather isn't helping at all...the hot and the heat is not good for me, i could not fight the heat they're too hot too strong.
i just need some break some time to think of~ somewhere i can escape to free of stress and free of everything and nothing to worry about~

current mood: sad and crying~ stressed~
:(

cookings~

haha...Wednesday, tonite's dinner consisted of 3 meals :
coke-chicken, fried cabbage and fried ikan-bilis spicy
:D
above are the photos taken...
and the first above is fried rice cooked of leftovers --> cabbage and fried ikan bilis and rice for thursday dinner


quite economic for students' life :D haha~ simple and nice dishes ~

friendship

As the old says, “the longest ship in this world is friendship”

It is true because nothing is stronger than a friendship and it will never break apart unless one is been betrayed or hurt thoroughly that it can never be mended.

Once a friend, friends forever; friends concern for each other; care for each other too; and no matter what, friends are meant for forever. Friends are always there to help each other around to each other’s needs.

When a friend is in problem, the other will help and so as others; friendship is important in the life, as it helps maintain the balance of one’s life, without friends, a person would be alone, with no help when needed, with no care when need to be cared for, with no shoulder when need to cry.

A phrase by Plauto, “Where you find friends, there you find riches”

Money can buy anything but not friendship and love. Friendship is valuable, it can never be valued or priced. Money can’t buy friendship but a rich heart can buy friendship.

=D

love

In Women everything is HEART, even the head. ----- J.P.Richter

how do you find this phrase?
i admit, as a girl, all i have is heart. a girl in love, everything is about heart to her...am i right in this statement?

i'm in love with Howard, *teehee, all i have in mind when i fall in love is Heart; a heart to care, a heart to love, a heart to concern, a heart to him...

i would say everything about me now is him -- the most adorable guy, Howard, apart from family and my studies.

when i'm not studying, i'll be thinking; when i'm thinking, it will be him; when i'm dreaming, he is there in my dream.

hehe...it may sound far-fetch or over, but truely he's the one i want~
long-distance shall be a challenge to us; it shall make our relationship stronger from time to time; i believe and we both believe so!

don't be sad because we part; be happy because we will meet again , as you always said...
FAITH is the catchword ... i have faith in you, and i know you shall never disappointment me :)

PMS

PMS
i had came upon this word very often~

PMS, can be defined as Pre-Menstrual Syndrome
which means, having irregular emotion before menstrual~

sadly to say, i always experience PMS whenever i got annoyed......it doesn't matter if my menstrual is around the clock or anything...i just got PMS...because annoyance!

i'm PMS-ing quite frequent these two days, after i spent my 2 hours in the bathroom cleaning and washing and scrubbing..it was annoying to know that everyone is out for fun, while i'm at home scrubbing! i hate it! i hate it when i do housechores without help...especially when everyone eles in the house DO have respinsibility as well!

i'm PMS-ing now as well~for no reason, perhaps i'm just annoyed by my sister's conduct, of her waking up early, and not washing the dishes, but sat there and watch her sweet drama~ for her, being so a look of "don't wanna to learn, but want ppl to help all the time", it sumtimes just take me off my limits...and being sister, i have to share my laptop with her, it's so unfair for the moment, coz she got my hp, got my laptop, while i'm left to nothing to communicate with outside~ omg...i really need a phone urgently! now i realise i could not live without a telecommunication tool!

i should quit PMS! haha~ it's really not nice at all~

nonetheless, PMS reminds me of my sweet college chemistry teacher--> Puan Mahani...
because of her strictness, we were afraid not to do our homework and hence, we said PMS (Puan Mahani Syndrome)...after all, thanks to her, we all had good results!

;)

eat more supplements to boost up my immune system maybe what i need at the moemnt~ n also to control my PMS! haha~ XP

quotes

Of all the sentiments LOVE is that which has greatest need of leisure - Stendhal.

what do you think of this quote?
Is it like how i interpret it as " love is the one sentiment that need most leisure, free times" ?

is it so?
haha...someone help me out...i confused with the meaning~

if it is so...does that mean everyone in the world who wishes for love need to have lotz of free times?
leisure = you need free time to "leisure" ... if a busy person doesn't have free time, how is there "leisure" ?

hmm...perhaps so is my interpretation correct...=P
or perhaps i'm wrong...leisure could also be created by oneself...if one is willing to sacrifice, no matter how busy it is, there would be "leisure".

There's always Time for LEISURE, Busy is just an excuse, a lame excuse to igrnore someone you love, someone who care for you, someone who is concern about you, something that is more important than Job!

have a thought. =D

perhaps i'm wrong, my perception? any comment?

给我一首歌的时间

A song by Jay Chou~ translated as "give me the time (length) of a song"
给我一首歌的时间
演唱：周杰伦


雨淋湿了天空
毁得很讲究
你说你不懂
为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默
悔得很冲动
就算这是做错
也只是怕错过

在一起叫梦
分开了叫痛
是不是说
没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果
我能承受
这最后的出口
在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠
哦如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天
哦越过你划的线
我定了勇气的终点

雨淋湿了天空
毁得很讲究
你说你不懂
为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默
悔得很冲动
就算这是做错
也只是怕错过

在一起叫梦
分开了叫痛
是不是说
没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果
我能承受
这最后的出口
在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠
哦如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天
哦越过你划的线
我定了勇气的终点

你说我不该不该
不该在这时候说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎力气
哦请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
我只有一天的回忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠
哦如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪
让它留在雨天
哦越过你划的线
我定了勇气的终点

你说我不该不该
不该在这时说了爱你
要怎么证明我没力气
告诉我暂停算不算放弃

你说我不该不该
不该在这时才说爱你
要怎么证明我没有力气
我只有一天的回忆

imperfect VS perfect

tiz phrase suddenly struck me moments ago.

There is hardly anything is PERFECT in this world, ask yourself, "Have there ever been something perfect happened in your life?"

Or is it greediness that cause a person to think something is imperfect?

My life seem to be perfect, i have a caring family, loving boyfriend, sweet friends, best friends, a uni life, college life, and yeah...i'm in australia...my friends always said i'm lucky and i live a good life...i mean affordable to go oversea...but sumtimes i doubt what i actually want? whether my life is perfect or not?

perhaps i'm greedy...i would choose to define my life as perfect if i got my family next to me now..my sweet bf besides me too...and friends are closer in distance rather than a 5 hours flight far away from where i am now...does this sound imperfect?

i realised a person could never be too perfect unless he is satisfied of what he did or what he had...

i'm not perfect either...i always criticised what my sister does when it isn't done in my way...weird huh? or pampered girl i am?

although so, I'm satisfied with my current life, excluding the part of me missing my bf too much and my family, others seem to be fine...there are always friends around...but not bf and family~
oh dear...how i miss them dearly...how i wish when i close my eyes, i would be back in malaysia~

life is not too perfect without you, Dear...wish you are here~ ;D

ooo...so...imperfect VS perfect, i guess it will always depend on the level of satisfactory of a person to grade perfection ~ ;) =P

back in Adelaide

adelaide=my second home
i'm back in Adelaide after a month break =) did not feel refreshed but felt tired abit~ exhausted to the peak! and hot to the highest! and crack to the nuttest!

I reached the airport around 9 sth in the morning, me and my siblings were very "rushing" all the way through customs and to the arrivals hall..and the luggage belt messed with our schedule...wahahaha...planned to move the fastest towards the customs declaration...but end up quite slow..but smooth :D

Reached home, found the weather extremely hot and dry~ my lips are dried and they hurt~ with lip balm also no cure~ and now finally the house got water! idiot to cut the water supply during the hottest temperature in the day!

it's autumn but it feels like we are still in summer~ i wanna go home where it is comfortable and nice weather although hot too, not as hot as this, not extreme as this, and not dry~ ps: i saw the torrens river level decreased to its original half...so dry~

anyway, i'm exhausted overall...been busy tidying things up n went to uni n settled things and banking and the weather is driving me crazy~

Adelaide better be colder soon~ *smirk* ;P

P/S: i miss my family, i miss bob, i miss my two best girls, i miss everyone back in malaysia~ wuwuwu~ :) love you all~

4 days~

four days, and i'll be on the plane back to Adelaide...to be sad or not to be? XP
four days, i had been in malacca visiting Bob n his family...felt so welcomed there :D

I think i'm going to miss everyone back in Malaysia~ again~
maybe i'll not be coming back next year?! maybe i'm lucky to get a proper job before i graduate and/or convocation, then i shall have holiday leave to fly back malaysia~ :D

to leave my family again...yes , it is sad...but i know no matter wat, we're still family, we will always stick together.

to leave Bob...hmm...it's extremely sad...everytime we bid goodbye, i'll be shading tears in my eyes again..even now...knowing he's still besides, but leaving back to KL soon tomolo...make me miserable...hehe...but i know that as long as we keep each other in touch and have faith~ we will get through it...just like my friend, Hernie and her husband~ I wanna us to be a happy sweet long-lasting couple!

I'm so going to miss him and my family and my best friends so much~eitherway, i still got to go back and finish my degree! :D last year in Uni, makes me feel scary but also excited...excited that i'll be stepping soon in the work society and able to wear elegant work-clothing =P

I will have my Baby Bomba and Bobubobu to accompany me ~ hahaha...they're now my official 'kids' ~ which i can look at and haha...(silly)...dream of BOB! :")

I really gonna miss him~anyway...haha...better hope that Petronas would never give him job n he will be free in 5 months and he shall be able to fly free anywhere to look for his dream job :) (muacks)

what a week

it was an awesome holiday i had for the past few days..from friday until yesterday night~
but the happiest and most memorable moments were the time when i went to malacca state.

friday was a busy day; i departed to KL at 1:30pm by bus...and gosh..it took 4 hours to get to puduraya...and it takes another 1 hour to stuck in a traffic jam~ geesh...busy day in KL everyday for everyone~then took a cab to hotel and settled everything before moving towards next destination:Petaling Street~

I finally met up with my two best girls O~named, wanying and lynette~and I'm really happy to see them and feel so touched that even though hsien was tired and wanying was sick that day, they came all the way from wangsa maju to the city~ I'm so pleased to see them after all~

we spent the night in KL city, Starhill, walking around Pavillion...and decoration for CNY was awesome in Starhill~the was a big OX in front of Pavillion~then we headed to Jalan Alor for supper snacks...and waited for my brother to come and fetch us...and we took a long long around way to wangsa maju...haha...and we were stopped by police and asked weird questions.It was a tiring day.But i was anticipating for tomorrow to come ~ malacca

saturday had a legal career fair, spent awhile browsing there and met yeefun~then we departed for Malacca...what we had for lunch, i already forgotten~ haha ~ the only thing i know is that we had a very packed schedule~ finding our way to Bob's place isn't that easy as we never go there before...we went pass alot of "spaghetti" road, but were on the right track towards his place, just a longer way~we reached about 6-7pm, then headed to wanzhen's place and picked her up and Malacca at 8-9pm!

we had chicken rice BALLS, finally i gotta taste on those balls.the famous Jonker Walk was crowded with locals and tourists and there are a lot of things to buy: pineapple tarts [freshly baked], dim sum 7 for RM3, toys and interesting souvenirs...wow...and the Walk is LONG~
after that, we went to Eye on Malaysia!!! haha~~~ which only cost us RM10 each as we are all MyCard holder~~~it was a nice view from the TOP of the Wheel~~~Bob was scared! haha~~~

by the time we reached back Bob's place was almost 2am~everyone was tired..but not me, I'm too excited to see Bob~ too excited indeed! we had a little chat before we went to bed~

next morning was early~i woke up early, Bob too~we went for a ride on his motorcycle, introducing me his usual fishing spot...and his neighbourhood~we even went to a small malay stall and had breakfast :D wah...my first nasi lemak since i came back from adelaide for holiday and first roti canai too~and very spicy!!!

we headed for beaches around Kampung Sungai Baru, went to Tanjung Bidara~ the weather was hot but nice clear~ then we had lunch! what a sumptous lunch we had~ Bob's mum cooked prawns, fishes, vege, curry chic, egg, ikan bakar somemore~ OMG! and there's also Cili Api!!! haha~~~my love~~~we all had a very full lunch especially my cousin from australia...he was not able to have dinner until 10pm that day when we were back in KL~

I spent my times in 1-U shopping mall on monday, met up with siewling for lunch and a shopping trip~1-U was really quiet on monday compare to sunday night which was packed with people and people and people~

KL life is hectic, we also trapped in traffic jam no matter where we were heading~
I personally still preferring small town life~ relax and peaceful ~

Past.Present.Future

][PAST][

I'd done something that I regretted a long time ago...causing me to lose a very very good friend of mine...we were close friend since 10 y.o...and it went on until 13...and until one day, because of my stupidity, we kinda lack of communication and eventually we became just friend, like now. Sometimes, I do wish that it did not happen before and that we're still close...but it's the past, I can't change it..but the present.

][PRESENT][

I do give a thought to my life:
--> what would I be doing if I'm not studying?
--> where would I be if I did not choose to study in Adelaide?
--> would I know Bob if I never go to Adelaide?
--> why I chose to be a lawyer?
--> what my future would be? and what had I done to make sure it happens?

there's just too many thoughts in my mind sometimes...I find it interesting sometimes...but I'm also afraid of what may come.
It's a challenge, I take it like that...A challenge to know myself and also to be a better person.
This is life...life is a challenge...

Currently, I'm back in malaysia for summer break, sometimes I wonder should I enjoy my holiday or should I give myself as a labor to big company?

being back in malaysia isn't that exciting after all...my hometown...everyone is not here...friends are busy with their UNI nowadays...only those who are on holiday, enjoying their holiday...my close friends, both are in KL, I want to go meet up with my girls...nevertheless, the person I want to see badly is Bob...I have noone to share my thoughts of recently and also noone to manja to but on YM...and sometimes talking on YM isn't a great idea at all...coz I'll never be able to see the true expression behind the screen...a person might be angry, but still put smilling icon on the screen...a person might be sad, but still smilling icon...hmm...wonder how can i see through?

see the true to feel something; see to feel, not feel to see.

][FUTURE][

yesterday is history, today is present, tomorrow is gift ?
is that how people phrase it?
I think what we do in the past and present will affect the future.
We, human, are in control of our lives...noone can control life, but YOURSELF.

long distance, I heard of a friend's friend's experience...long distance, lack of communication and less contact...relationship fell apart; I fear of that; But I believe that I must work hard to keep it on...a few texts everyday or when we're less talking will do the tricks...I want this relationship to continue...I just got the feel.

career, everyone who knows I'm doing law degree is talking about me being a big lawyer after I graduate. To be honest, I have no idea what I want to be...a corporate lawyer? a solicitor? a barrister? a tax advisor? hmm...I'm not sure I'm a person born to be a lawyer either...but I want to graduate first then only decide what field I want to go into....management is not a bad idea =P

friendship, this is the longest ship in the world, which will never fall apart but to sail on forever, no matter where we are. I love my friends and do hope all the best for them!

the key point is : KEEP IN TOUCH AND CONTACT!

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hoho...i think i've been talking too much...better chop off...
today is a cloudy day again...and yes, nothing much to do...perhaps should work out exercise like what Bob wants to do today.

adiyos

missing

I miss you...I'm so so so ...

hmmm...how am I to survive without you...

aiyo...missing you badly, I miss your hug, I miss your comfort, I miss your jokes, I miss everything of you...

so hoping you could be right next to me now... =D

It's not a sad thing, I'm just missing you...I'm not crying either, I'm smiling because I know there surely be a day when we will see each other soon, soon before I fly back Adelaide for studies...until then, I will miss you much, definitely miss you to the max!

~ we must see each other ~ haha... =P it's a demand :P

ngek ngek
a...before i forgotten! Say Hi to my bubu O~ XP

属于

最近，很喜欢听梁静茹的《属于》， 很感人呢!

~我坚持的 都值得坚持吗
我所相信的 就是真的吗
如果我敢追求 我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了 不要呢

或许吧 或许我永远都不会遇见他
或许吧 或许我太天真了吧
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力


属于风的 那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的 那就汹涌的
属于我们的爱 该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢 不要呢?

是他吧 命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧 他原来就在这里啊

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们还要努力~

最近的心情也是如此。。。好烦啊！
他是属于我的吧？ 我真的搞不懂啊~