2008年就快结束了~

2008年就快结束了，2009就快跟大家说‘hello’了。

2008这年头里，真的发生了很多事。。。大多都值得怀恋的。好想念anling哦！哈哈~

2008是我的桃花运史~就让我遇见了bob，可也不是很高兴的事，因为他就快回malaysia了，最近，当飞回马来西亚的日子越迫近，我就越‘不知所措’，我都不想理会他，越是靠近，越是担心明年没他我会很难生活......真是的，我觉得自己好差劲哦，我喜欢他，也怕失去他，当初选择时就知道会有这么一天，但怎么也没想到会是这么痛苦的......我对他的脾气也越来越不好，因为知道彼此就快分开好一段日子，所以想要这样，就不会这么痛~~~反而，结果是相反的，我越是这样，我越痛苦。~彼此开开心心度过剩下的日子才是我最希望的，我最想要的！！！~觉得自己好傻哦~ *烦*

2008的倒数......还有3个小时，就是2009年1月1日了。。。喔~时间过得好快哦~~~
哈哈

2008也是我的幸福年啊！我好开心有他~有他的陪伴，我珍惜~

刚刚在听梁静茹的“属于”，好感人哦~让我想起了过去。。。是时候跟过去说再见了！ ‘再见过去，我相信会有更好的未来，我期待着美好，幸福的未来！’

在这里祝大家‘happy new year, all the best and may wishes come true’
God Bless

好了，要出去，要去倒数现场了，要去凑热闹了~ 呵呵~别了~再见~

shock

" ur driving is disgusting, do u know that? "
that's the part of conversation that keeps ringing in my head since this morning...
traumatized? am I? perhaps~
shocked? am I? perhaps~

I know I did not drive carefully this morning at the most weirdest round-a-bout i had ever seen, and there were so many cars and most importantly, there's a police car at the back of my wheels...yeah...for ur information, I'm a person afraid of policemen, regardless if I did did wrong or not...it's such in my blood to be afraid of police..and it sucks!

I'm not mad at the police or anyone for scolding me...but could he at least be abit more gentleman? the words he used, perhaps not annoying anyone, but it is affecting me!
I know I did wrong and my "friend" who sat next to me in the car also reminded kindly of not to do that again next time...but I'm still in shock, shock with the police's scolding...I've been crying since i got home this morning, and i even dropped tears when i was having lunch with my friends and on my way back home on the bus a few hours ago... :'(

and because of that, I got no nerve at all today, at the moment, to drive my friend to the airport after her exam...
I met my student adviser with a pair of watery and heavy eyes...
I hate myself for being so careless this morning and ruined Bob's day...
I hate myself for being such an annoying person the whole afternoon because of my mood...

However, there's noone to blame but me~ I'm the one who caused myself in this trauma...
like Bob's says, this things happen, as long as we learn from mistake.

I had always been so high in EQ but now it just seem to be collapsing...going down...in the deep~
I need more comfort at the moment...my guess...I don't think i'm going to drive these few days, and i should forever avoid that stupid round-a-bout which is weird and has 5 exits and not 4 exits like normal ones...*trying to get rid of my responsibility to make myself feels better*

finally

finally, results out, and I passed! 2 Credit and 2 Pass...
I'm really grateful that this semester went as smooth as I wanted it to be...thank God!

and now i'm counting the days to fly back malaysia, which falls on 9 January.
I want to attend my loved's graduation, and therefore, i fly back late, but i never expect an aunt's visit to adelaide falling on 2 Jan, eventually i couldn't fly back earlier...:P
but anyway, it doesn't really make a big difference, just a week...and i'm happy to have my aunt here, so that she can help me out with my house decoration or anything...:P such a 'bad' niece i am.

and now my holiday is officially on...but i have no idea what to do.
travelling? that would cost me hundreds to thousands of dollars...which i need to save for next year expenses.
shopping? spending too much, i would not have enough money to pay bills then.
working? noone wants me as a part-time worker, not even as a summer casual worker...how pathetic that is.

haiz..all these leed to a word --> "boring"
i wonder what i can do for the rest of my holiday?
i wanna cook a nice and delicious feast for this coming christmas...
i wanna buy a camera..i need one, yes i do need one, i never own one before either.

haiz..holiday! where to go?! i need something to do!

Counting~

yeap yEaP YEAP!!!

tomorrow is my time to go to the battlefield, and the day after tomorrow too~
and then I'll be officially done for Semester 2, 2008!!! yeah~

][feeling][
I just could not wait until the exam is over...
I've been doing revision, with too much number, all the provisions in the legislation, all the cases...
I've been (sort of) "numb", mentally...
I just can't wait for the exam to be over after all...

][preparation][
yea...although I had done revision for tomorrow paper, still, I'm feeling insecure?! hehe...scary...it's always been scary to sit for exam~
tension~stress~pressure
woah~~~nervous too~~~
but, whatever I do, I always remind myself not to panic (when I'm in exam hall)!
I think it's always better to do revision a few weeks before exam...because it does ease things~

anyway...enough for the 'talking'...better be off~

to everyone sitting exam!!! Good Luck~

][

exam

it's near the end of year 2008 already which also brings us the "Finals" to University students in Australia.

Every year, we got two weeks of study weeks, "Swot Back", for Semester 1, but when it comes to Semester 2, it is always 1 week of study week...that really put some pressure on some people...especially those that has not been studying and doing revision, perhaps like me?!

What really stressed about study week in Semester 2 is some people still have to attend classes, during study week...but on another point of view, it also provides you more time to interact with lecturer or tutor or seminar leader, and ask them questions about exam! which is informative and beneficial, i believe.

Last semester, i had one take home exam, one essay, and 2 papers...this semester I'm having the same assessment as well, just different courses...I'm done with the take home exam, which i had completed too early till friends calling me crazy XP ...I'm done with the essay ages ago before study week starts, and now I'm left with two more papers to sit for on 12 and 13 November!!!

I could not wait for the finals to over~ I want to go shopping~ I want to go to the beach and sun-bathe, perhaps? haha~ I want to take a lot of beautiful photos this summer~ I want to get a Full-time Summer Job~ hehe...A lot of tasks I want to complete too...cleaning the house, decorate the house, make the house more attractive and etc...

counting down the days to 13 November! and I'm free for the year of 2008!!!

Waiting for SUMMER!!! although i know it's going to be very very hot and burning especially if i'm staying until next January! but I know I would be very happy this summer for some reason~ ;)

又是一天过去了

时间过得真快~眨眼有一个月了，又快一年了。
真是的。时间干嘛这样不留情啊？呵呵~
我也都21岁了，明年就要毕业了！哈哈！还蛮高兴就快毕业了，另一方也担心工作~不知我会在哪工作赚钱呢？呵呵~申请了几个公司要当intern，却处处碰盯~不知是因为我的成绩不符合他们呢？还是真像他们所说的‘没空缺了，请您下次再apply吧’ haiz~~~haha...但，也好啦，今年summer break 可以去当christmas casual [三倍工钱哦!] ， 还可当part-time，赚点钱回马来西亚‘血拼’ :D

又是一天快要过去了，晚餐时间也快到了，还盲无目标要吃什么，今天也因为早餐吃迟了，结果又胃痛，=P 前天晚餐也吃迟了，结果还被训了一顿，:|


又是一天快要过去了，我也还在电脑前，写blog, essay, 真要趁快把它作完，这样才会开开心心温习，准备应付考试！ 加油！努力！:D

好的，就ｐｏｓｔ到这先吧～赶紧加快速度把那３０００字的ｅｓｓａｙ写完。那就真的大快人心了！　哈哈～

~the day seems to be longer now~

now that daylight savings is on again~ the day seems to be longer, and it is weird because everytime when we have dinner, it seems to be still afternoon, well at least we felt so, and just not evening enough to have dinner ~ haha~
and the night shorter now...every time when i notice the sky is getting darker, the clock is almost 9pm already, amazing how the mother nature works~

Spring is going to end soon, and summer would be coming, i wonder how dreadful or dry or hot or warm or burning this summer would be in Adelaide, since I'm starting to get headache, dizziness and difficulty in breathing now that the weather is getting warmer~ at the same time, i wonder would i survive during the summer~hehe~~~hopefully it wouldn't be that bad~

P/S: anyone has any suggestion what to do to prevent headache, dizziness and breathing difficulty during summer?!

好辛苦

最近，真的越来越觉得无能，无助。有时真的好想放弃学业，可是，我不可以这样。这会是父母的负担，也是我办不到的。
我只想要更多的时间，我只想要时间就停在现在~
刚刚，我又哭了，从昨晚就想哭了，好不容易有“莫”在我身边， 我才没掉下那无畏的眼泪~
可是，我现在还是哭了，真不知道为什么，真的不知怎样是好呢~
我有个3000字的essay要交，take home exam，就在考试的前一个星期，真懊恼!烦！

我真的觉得好无能啊！谁能来开导一下嘞？

helpless is the scariest fear of my life,
stress is the fear of my life;
family is the power point of my life,
love is the strength of my life;
listening to Jay's latest song, the lyrics remind me of how sweet is "home sweet home", how good it is to be back to my family, and how nice it is not to handle my stress alone.
I'm just feeling too helpless at the moment, as the exam approach. It is the fear of my study life. I'm afraid of failure, I'm afraid of people saying I'm not as good as my siblings, cousins, I'm afraid to lose, to lose the one i love most, I'm afraid of what I'm afraid of~it's just circulating around~

I may look happy, but it may be crying inside;
I may smile, but it may be hollow.

What a foolish girl I am~to fear what i fear of~to "listen" to my fears instead of overcome them~
What a foolish girl I am~to not work hard when i know i have to~to "follow" my heart is sometimes what i regretted~
What a foolish girl I am~to be annoyed with people that don't even offend me~to be "idiot" as i can be~

I'm stupid till I could not write a simple answer to a simple essay question~
I'm stupid to see things as simple as I can see~

Am i stupid？
Am i suitable for law?
Am i a good girl/daughter?
Am i a good student?

:'(

Nutz

Spring it is, but it doesn't mean the weather gotta be so weird!
Spring it is, where the weather turns dramatically! you will find one day hot and sunny, the next day, it will be cold and windy!

it's just nutz~~~

i'm going crazy on this weather! help~~~

XD

~september~

September = Spring = Spirit of Happiness 

september is finally here, spring is here as well, making the weather nice and not cold as winter :D and i'm able to wear less, finally~  

september is full of hapiness and excitement~ because it's my birthday month! i'm a september baby, i'm proud to be one! 

september 12 - had dinner with adeline, bob and celine...my birthday celebration dinner-in-advance with celine as she's flying to Sydney for one month and she wont be in adelaide for my birthday and adeline's too. It was really lucky of us to get four seats with Starhouse...and the manager was so gentleman...really good service, i must say...and yes..next time birthday dinner is there too! =D 

it's going to be my 21st !!! on 21st too!!! and it's september, my guests of honour most probably be only 9 person...which makes everything sound so lucky, with the number 9 and 21, which is my birthday date ~ so so happy~~~ 

i love to be a september baby~partly because i'm the last to celebrate birthday every year in my family, makes me feel i'm being loved and "sayang" of~~~:D 

i love september because it's the month i came to this world, specifically, on 21st!!! ;) 

and i love the number 21! blackjack~~~ 

unfortunately, i share my birthday with once a sad news happened in Taiwan, in 1998,  an earthquake, here, i specially pay a tribute to those who did not survive the incident. 

anyway, september is also the month full of assignment~~~ essay essay essay, non-stop writing, and cracking my mind to find the appropriate words, sentences to conclude essay~ 

~a joke on racism~

To my fellow malaysian, here's a lame joke from my boyfriend. The conversation goes like this :

"
myBF : hey, y malaysia so racist one ar, say chinese, indian all kaum pendatang? malay oso pendatang ma.

me : aiya, normal la. malaysia ma.

me : what about those bugis and Portuguese? what should we call them? kaum penjajah??

me : ha ha..;)

the end~ "

i wonder why there are still people out there that still cannot accept malaysian malaysia concept. If these people really wanna be racist, then let it be against those kaum penjajah that fool you once before.

cheers~
P/S: no offense, it is just a joke for a laugh that might or might not make ur day happy?! smile!

wound~

haha~~~my hand is healing fast for an Asian according to the doctor, not too bad, i suppose, but still abit sore when the nurse helped to redress it~and *sigh one more appointment with the doctor again tomolo~I didn't exactly do what i wanted to do while i was visiting the doctor today~ i was supposed to ask him for YAZ [helps reduce pre-period symptoms medicine which my cousin recommended]~ -.-"' aiyoyo~~~dunno this month menstrual would be what again...~annoying~

today wasn't a good day either~just miserable~

well...life is just that~you never know what will happen tomorrow~let just go with the flow, shall we?! perhaps we might end up with zero results, but we must give it a try~=D and I'm glad that i meet you~and i'm really happy~

if u read this blog, and know i'm referring to you~~~*hmph..first, i must say, someone really reads my blog [hehe]...second, i'm just being silly again, tat's all~ so...don't be mad at me, or spoil your day by my mood-swing~ I wouldn't be happy with it~ I'll feel bad~

~xoxo~

To a person who may not know the existence of this blog~

I received a small confession from someone two hours ago~
It was not surprisingly, to be honest, but I was touched by it.
I never know that he would eventually confess about his feelings towards me after all this long drag over the years~felt weird, but I did appreciated that he made the confession tonight.
Although it is late to listen to it, it was something true coming out of the heart!

from what I can sense or see from the conversation just now, you're still waiting perhaps?!
-you're immature that time, well...we're both were immature back then~
-no matter how much apologies you made, you still have hatred in yourself...hmph...don't hate yourself for that...life goes on for everyone...I never hate you for what you had done...We learn from mistakes and forgive what must be forgiven~
-all we want is that we both are happy with our lives at the moment~and really thanks for your wishes for my happiness! I'll and [keep in my mind that I must] work hard to keep it going on with him[Bob]! :D
Thanks for your "zhu fu"!!! and your confession!!!

I hope you will find ur happiness soon!

motivation

I find that i'm lack of motivation to complete my task, especially in studies~
gosh, oh god, bless me plz...i really need blessing...MOTIVATION plz~ :D
and DETERMINATION too~~~~
*aherm* even though i'm motivated, plus determined to do something, in the end, i'll end up completing partly not wholly~ =P which is why i need MOTIVATION + DETERMINATION!

*wink
so now i'm motivated to write blog, perhaps after a few days, you will be seeing me disappearing from the site, maybe i'll come back in a week time, or worse case, a year perhaps?! =P

*nah, just joking~ haha~ =P

neyway, now am motivated to study capital gains tax and corporate law which are driving me crazy and stressed and depressed and causing me to lose my motivation~ so...GOD BLESS ME!

surprised

I was so surprised to learn that my friend blog too~ apparently he started blogging since last month, and I only realized it today~ I'm so sorry a...zhi jie ye ye~

yeah...surprised~life is full of surprise, you never know what will happen to you the next moment.
like me, it happens to me all the time~I never dare to dream that I'll have boyfriend after being single for quite a few years~life is just unpredictable~I never thought I'd got a chance between me and him~life is so full of excitement~the list does go on and on~

and last week, there was a "surprise" for me as well!!! well...kinda...but not a happy surprise..it was a painful surprise. I accidentally fell down on the stairs-way in University. apart from getting a unbearable scratch on my hand, I'm safe. Lucky for me, there wasn't much people walking up/down the stairs, only two matured men, it was funny though, they were asking how am i doing after i fell down, i just kept quiet for a few moment before i really answered them, because I was so shocked that i actually fell down after all these years of being safe from falling down~ =P *crap! i could not deny that i was being blur that day, and it was so early in the morning after a visit from the clinic...just "luck" i supposed! and my boyfriend laughed when i saw him my wound and told him what happened!

so...life is full of unexpected things, surprises, up and down, happiness, sadness, excitement, disappointment and etc...it's just the way you deal with it that matters [personal opinion]
u can laugh at yourself for falling down, it makes u feel better.
u can laugh at yourself for crying without reason, it makes u feel better too.
u can cry whenever you feel like to, it is a relief.
u can smile whenever you want, even though people might think you're mad.

and today, i met with another 'surprise'...I had an online quiz today, and i was surprised to find that the lecturer had changed the co-ordination of the questions, so that me and my classmates could not discuss the answers among ourselves. Lucky for me, I did studied beforehand.