sadly

nonsense...childish...fiasco...chaos...rubbish

Are these enough to describe the current politic situation in Perak, Perak Government?

It was a relief to read in the newspaper that finally the High Court of Malaysia ruled that Nizar is the valid MB of Perak, and PKR is the legitimate government.

Now, what a crap to see that a stay of execution of the order pending an appeal filed by Zambry was ordered down by the Court of Appeal...omg...this has not make the fiasco better, ain't it?

Could it be worse?

Perak people need government, once the fiasco, chaos has not end...how could there be development for the State? how could there be concern for the PUBLIC DOMAIN when all the so-called legitimate and illegitimate government do now is ARGUING like kindies WHO IS THE LEGAL MB AND GOVERNMENT?

please...would you listen to what the public got to say! after all, i thought election is about PUBLIC VOTES! Public interest majority!

Where is fairness when the BN just took over when Hee Yit Fong crossed-over to BN? Where was the impartiality when the Speaker of Assembly, Siva, was forcefully carried out by the sergeants and Speaker's status has provided Siva the immunity?

Why not just have a re-election? is it that difficult?
to force the perak people to accept a government that they don't want, would that be fair? would it be efficient then for the government?

*sigh* peace should be retained after all!

Cover letter

omg..i know we are to send in cover letters and CV when applying for job..
but it's so annoying knowing that your cover letter isn't that interesting or eye-catching..so frustrating

i'm getting advice from my bf, my brother...one is simple and hit to the points, another is fancy and eye-catching strong phrases.
omg...which one should i keep up with?
i'm always the kind of person "simple and easy is the best", but now it makes sense to me that fancy and eye-catching words show more tendency of getting a job!

i guess i'll stick to fancy and eye-catching words but also straight to the point of coz since i'm so desperate for a firm to hire me! :D haha~

乐观 vs 悲观

我一向来也不是说很悲观的说，只觉得活得开心就是快乐，没什么好担忧的。
最近，倒是相反的，最近，我越来越emotional，越来越悲观的呢。。。常常都想要哭，想要逃避，想要死了就算，真烦啊！
stress? intense? pressure？
我是学生，压力是正常的啊！hmmph! 我究竟怎么了？真搞不懂自己~
可能是final year 吧，我害怕毕业，我也害怕毕不了业；我害怕找不到工作，我更害怕我不懂我要的是什么。。。
我要PR? 我要回家？我要当律师？我想要什么，在这阶段，我还没真地想出来。。。但我懂，我要考到好成绩，顺利毕业！
我知道我一定行的！我要告诉自己：I Can Do It! 要常常提醒自己如此。
:D

好想家呢~ wuwuwu~
好想他哦~

算了吧，我一定要毕业！我一定会的！然后，我再慢慢的考虑要做什么也应该不迟吧？:D
就这样告诉自己，也应该会比较好过点吧。。。也没这么辛苦
好！瑜贤，要加油！必须加油！必须相信自己是行的! 必须要坚持到底！
:D

crap

crap..i couldn't believe that i actually shaded tears in front of the whole class...and a solicitor, stephen~
omg..it was kinda embarrassing after all...>.<

i had been preparing for last week application for one week..and i thought the most i would be shaking in the class when i talk, just plain simple nervous...i had no expectation that panic shock would struck me and tears just flow out the moment the guest judge asked me a question...stupidity, ain't it?

that wasn't the first time i cried for the week...i had been crying for my two weeks easter break..damn it! how can this actually happen to me...i was asking myself all the time~
stress?
depressed?
tension?
love?
studies?
omg...when i first got the chance to try-out for tele-marketing, i find it interesting and fun until the pressure slowly eats me up, the tense of getting appointment by the end of the work day, at least 2 appointments for trainees, and the target goes up until 4 appointments to see our performance....i couldn't perform~i just got no urge or any will to force people to be interested in an education software when they're not, even if their children really need it, but they're not interested..i just couldn't push them~ when uni starts for the term 2 of semester 1, i went in for another day, the first day of the week, i couldn't perform as well, partly of my voice because of the flu and cold...and i was not in a mood to talk on the phone for 4 hours...too draggy~all the time i was in the office, i was looking at my clock, waiting for 7:30pm to come! when i went in again the next day, my manager asked to talk to me before working time starts, that time, i had already made decision, to quit, i was going to quit after all, the pressure is eating me up too much, i became too depressed for my whole holiday...i really can't bear with it anymore..finally, i quit and i was really relieved after that.

concentrate on studies, that's what i want myself to do at the moment for this year, 2009..perhaps i could get some part-time job to get some extra cash, but i'm picky, i went for training with a sushi bar, i was complaining about the work environment and how i got backache after that, omg...haha...charlotte was saying something like "u're a princess la"...but yeah, i couldn't deny that, i just want a normal and non-hectic life, i suppose...with easy cash coming in without working my ass off?! how dreamy i can be~ haha~ i guess it will take time for me to learn to be more realistic...after all, i had been living under "daddy-mummy" roof for such a long year, pampered by grandparents, maid and the living environment~ i don't really give a thought of how my parents earn money when i was in my teenage, i just spent money, although technically, i don't spend money on shopping because they're always around when we go shopping..we go out as a family, until i reach my college age, only then, i was independent, but still pampered...protected by uncles and aunties in KL~how "xin fu" i can be, i asked myself? i could go back taiping whenever i want to, i can spend money whenever i want to..but after 17 years education of my parents, i do learn something, that is, the Khaw Family (members, incl uncles aunties cousins), we don't spend money wastefully, we spend them wisely, only when we need it..well...hmm..exception for girls i suppose...coz we need to shop to dress up and be pretty! :D

anyway, i've been living a good life, even in adelaide, i couldn't really have problem la...i got a house...a car...
sometimes i really wonder could i be like those rich girl, and be bitchy, and spend money without thinking of how hard my parents earn the money, spend money like it is nothing at all, and people got envy with me because i could just spend on whatever i want?!

haha...well i guess...i could...in my dreams~ :D but afterall, it depends on the nature of the person, whether it is in the nature to spend, as for me, i've been trained not to spend money like that..like the way i wondered if i could, i've been trained to save money, probably i would only spend more abit on shopping whenever i could and whenever i feel worth it...i just couldn't spend my parents' money for nothing or to be a wild child, or rich girl~

see...these are crap i wanted to say for this post...:P