Past.Present.Future

][PAST][

I'd done something that I regretted a long time ago...causing me to lose a very very good friend of mine...we were close friend since 10 y.o...and it went on until 13...and until one day, because of my stupidity, we kinda lack of communication and eventually we became just friend, like now. Sometimes, I do wish that it did not happen before and that we're still close...but it's the past, I can't change it..but the present.

][PRESENT][

I do give a thought to my life:
--> what would I be doing if I'm not studying?
--> where would I be if I did not choose to study in Adelaide?
--> would I know Bob if I never go to Adelaide?
--> why I chose to be a lawyer?
--> what my future would be? and what had I done to make sure it happens?

there's just too many thoughts in my mind sometimes...I find it interesting sometimes...but I'm also afraid of what may come.
It's a challenge, I take it like that...A challenge to know myself and also to be a better person.
This is life...life is a challenge...

Currently, I'm back in malaysia for summer break, sometimes I wonder should I enjoy my holiday or should I give myself as a labor to big company?

being back in malaysia isn't that exciting after all...my hometown...everyone is not here...friends are busy with their UNI nowadays...only those who are on holiday, enjoying their holiday...my close friends, both are in KL, I want to go meet up with my girls...nevertheless, the person I want to see badly is Bob...I have noone to share my thoughts of recently and also noone to manja to but on YM...and sometimes talking on YM isn't a great idea at all...coz I'll never be able to see the true expression behind the screen...a person might be angry, but still put smilling icon on the screen...a person might be sad, but still smilling icon...hmm...wonder how can i see through?

see the true to feel something; see to feel, not feel to see.

][FUTURE][

yesterday is history, today is present, tomorrow is gift ?
is that how people phrase it?
I think what we do in the past and present will affect the future.
We, human, are in control of our lives...noone can control life, but YOURSELF.

long distance, I heard of a friend's friend's experience...long distance, lack of communication and less contact...relationship fell apart; I fear of that; But I believe that I must work hard to keep it on...a few texts everyday or when we're less talking will do the tricks...I want this relationship to continue...I just got the feel.

career, everyone who knows I'm doing law degree is talking about me being a big lawyer after I graduate. To be honest, I have no idea what I want to be...a corporate lawyer? a solicitor? a barrister? a tax advisor? hmm...I'm not sure I'm a person born to be a lawyer either...but I want to graduate first then only decide what field I want to go into....management is not a bad idea =P

friendship, this is the longest ship in the world, which will never fall apart but to sail on forever, no matter where we are. I love my friends and do hope all the best for them!

the key point is : KEEP IN TOUCH AND CONTACT!

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hoho...i think i've been talking too much...better chop off...
today is a cloudy day again...and yes, nothing much to do...perhaps should work out exercise like what Bob wants to do today.

adiyos